24-11-2005
Lawrence Ferlinghetti
(b. 1919)
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I AM WAITING
I am waiting for my case to come up and I am waiting for a rebirth of wonder and I am waiting for someone to really discover America and wail and I am waiting for the discovery of a new symbolic western frontier and I am waiting for the American Eagle to really spread its wings and straighten up and fly right and I am waiting for the Age of Anxiety to drop dead and I am waiting for the war to be fought which will make the world safe for anarchy and I am waiting for the final withering away of all governments and I am perpetually awaiting a rebirth of wonder
I am waiting for the Second Coming and I am waiting for a religious revival to sweep thru the state of Arizona and I am waiting for the Grapes of Wrath to be stored and I am waiting for them to prove that God is really American and I am seriously waiting for Billy Graham and Elvis Presley to exchange roles seriously and I am waiting to see God on television piped onto church altars if only they can find the right channel to tune in on and I am waiting for the Last Supper to be served again with a strange new appetizer and I am perpetually awaiting a rebirth of wonder
I am waiting for my number to be called and I am waiting for the living end and I am waiting for dad to come home his pockets full of irradiated silver dollars and I am waiting for the atomic tests to end and I am waiting happily for things to get much worse before they improve and I am waiting for the Salvation Army to take over and I am waiting for the human crowd to wander off a cliff somewhere clutching its atomic umbrella and I am waiting for Ike to act and I am waiting for the meek to be blessed and inherit the earth without taxes and I am waiting for forests and animals to reclaim the earth as theirs and I am waiting for a way to be devised to destroy all nationalisms without killing anybody and I am waiting for linnets and planets to fall like rain and I am waiting for lovers and weepers to lie down together again in a new rebirth of wonder
I am waiting for the Great Divide to be crossed and I am anxiously waiting for the secret of eternal life to be discovered by an obscure general practitioner and save me forever from certain death and I am waiting for life to begin and I am waiting for the storms of life, to be over and I am waiting to set sail for happiness and I am waiting for a reconstructed Mayflower to reach America with its picture story and tv rights sold in advance to the natives and I am waiting for the lost music to sound again in the Lost Continent in a new rebirth of wonder
I am waiting for the day that maketh all things clear and I am waiting for Ole Man River to just stop rolling along past the country club and I am waiting for the deepest South to just stop Reconstructing itself in its own image and I am waiting for a sweet desegregated chariot to swing low and carry me back to Ole Virginie and I am waiting for Ole Virginie to discover just why Darkies are born and I am waiting for God to lookout from Lookout Mountain and see the Ode to the Confederate Dead as a real farce and I am awaiting retribution for what America did to Tom Sawyer and I am perpetually awaiting a rebirth of wonder
I am waiting for Tom Swift to grow up and I am waiting for the American Boy to take off Beauty's clothes and get on top of her and I am waiting for Alice in Wonderland to retransmit to me her total dream of innocence and I am waiting for Childe Roland to come to the final darkest tower and I am waiting for Aphrodite to grow live arms at a final disarmament conference in a new rebirth of wonder
I am waiting to get some intimations of immortality by recollecting my early childhood and I am waiting for the green mornings to come again youth's dumb green fields come back again and I am waiting for some strains of unpremeditated art to shake my typewriter and I am waiting to write the great indelible poem and I am waiting for the last long careless rapture and I am perpetually waiting for the fleeing lovers on the Grecian Urn to catch each other up at last and embrace and I am awaiting perpetually and forever a renaissance of wonder
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ESTOU À ESPERA
Estou à espera que seja a vez do meu caso e estou à espera de um renascimento do maravilhoso e estou à espera de alguém que descubra realmente a América e se lamente e estou à espera da descoberta de uma nova fronteira simbólica no Oeste e estou à espera que a Águia Americana estenda realmente suas asas e se erga e voe pelo bom caminho e estou à espera que a Era da Ansiedade caia morta e estou à espera duma guerra que virá preparando o mundo para a anarquia e estou à espera da decadência definitiva de todos os governos e estou perpetuamente à espera de um renascimento do maravilhoso
Estou à espera da Segunda Vinda e estou à espera dum renascimento religioso que se alastre pelo estado do Arizona e estou à espera que as Vinha da Ira sejam armazenadas e estou à espera que elas comprovem que Deus realmente é Americano e estou à espera s sem me rir que Billy Graham e Elvis Presley troquem seus papéis a sério e estou à espera de ver Deus na televisão empoleirado nos altares das igrejas caso eles consigam apanhar o bom canal para sintonizar Deus e estou à espera que a Última Ceia seja servida novamente com um novo estranho aperitivo e estou perpetuamente à espera de um renascimento do maravilhoso
Estou à espera que chamem o meu número e estou à espera do final vivo e estou à espera que meu velho volte para casa com bolsos cheios de dólares de prata radioactiva e estou à espera que acabem as experiências atómicas e estou à espera alegremente que as coisas piorem para depois melhorarem e estou à espera que o Exército da Salvação tome conta da situação e estou à espera que a multidão humana algures caia duma falésia abaixo agarrada a seu guarda-chuva atómico
e estou à espera que o Ike actue e estou à espera que os humildes sejam abençoados e herdem a terra sem pagar impostos e estou à espera que as florestas e os animais reclamem a terra como sua e estou à espera que se descubra uma maneira de acabar com todos os nacionalismos sem matar ninguém e estou à espera que os piriquitos e os planetas caiam como chuva e estou à espera que os amantes e as choradeiras se deitem juntos novamente num novo renascimento do maravilhoso
Estou à espera que a Grande Barreira seja atravessada e estou ansiosamente à espera que o segredo da vida eterna seja descoberto por um obscuro clínico geral e me salve para sempre da morte certa e estou à espera que a vida comece e estou à espera que os temporais da vida passem e estou à espera de soltar velas e zarpar para a felicidade e estou à espera que iam Mayflower reconstruído chegue a América com sua história aos quadradinhos e direitos da TV vendidos desde já aos nativos e estou à espera que a melodia perdida ressoe novamente no Continente perdido num novo renascimento do maravilhoso
Estou à espera do dia em que tudo se esclareça e estou à espera que o Old Man River deixe de correr pelos arredores do Country Club e estou à espera que o extremo sul deixe de se reconstruir à sua própria imagem e estou à espera que um carro des-segregado me leve de volta a antiga Virgínia e estou à espera que a antiga Virgínia descubra porque é que nascem os negros e estou à espera que Deus espreite da Montanha das Espreitadelas e se aperceba que a Ode aos Confederados Mortos na verdade é uma farsa e estou à espera do castigo pelo que a América fez ao Tom Sawyer e estou perpetuamente à espera de um renascimento do maravilhoso
Estou à espera que o Tom Swift cresça e estou à espera que o rapaz Americano arranque as roupas à Beleza e se ponha em cima dela e estou à espera que Alice no País das Maravilhas me retransmita seu integral sonho de inocência e estou à espera que o Cavaleiro Rolando atinja a última e mais sombria torre e estou à espera que Afrodite germine armas vivas numa conferência final de desarmamento num novo renascimento do maravilhoso
Estou à espera do sentir algum prenúncio da imortalidade relembrando minha infância e estou à espera que voltem as manhãs de esperança que voltem os campos verdes da juventude e estou à espera que acorde de arte espontânea percorram minha máquina de escrever e estou perpetuamente a espera o grande e indelével poema e estou à espera pelo último longo êxtase desleixado e estou perpetuamente a espera que os fugidios amantes da Ânfora Grega consigam finalmente agarrar-se e enlaçar-se e estou à espera perpetuamente e para sempre de um renascimento do maravilhoso
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Autobiography
I am leading a quiet life in Mike's Place every day watching the champs of the Dante Billiard Parlor and the French pinball addicts. I am leading a quiet life on lower East Broadway. I am an American. I was an American boy. I read the American Boy Magazine and became a boy scout in the suburbs. I thought I was Tom Sawyer catching crayfish in the Bronx River and imagining the Mississippi. I had a baseball mit and an American Flyer bike. I delivered the Woman's Home Companion at five in the afternoon or the Herald Trib at five in the morning. I still can hear the paper thump on lost porches. I had an unhappy childhood. I saw Lindbergh land. I looked homeward and saw no angel. I got caught stealing pencils from the Five and Ten Cent Store the same month I made Eagle Scout. I chopped trees for the CCC and sat on them. I landed in Normandy in a rowboat that turned over. I have seen the educated armies on the beach at Dover. I have seen Egyptian pilots in purple clouds shopkeepers rolling up their blinds at midday potato salad and dandelions at anarchist picnics. I am reading 'Lorna Doone' and a life of John Most terror of the industrialist a bomb on his desk at all times. I have seen the garbagemen parade in the Columbus Day Parade behind the glib farting trumpeters. I have not been out to the Cloisters in a long time nor to the Tuileries but I still keep thinking of going. I have seen the garbagemen parade when it was snowing. I have eaten hotdogs in ballparks. I have heard the Gettysburg Address and the Ginsberg Address. I like it here and I won't go back where I came from. I too have ridden boxcars boxcars boxcars. I have travelled among unknown men. I have been in Asia with Noah in the Ark. I was in India when Rome was built. I have been in the Manger with an Ass. I have seen the Eternal Distributor from a White Hill in South San Francisco and the Laughing Woman at Loona Park outside the Fun House in a great rainstorm still laughing. I have heard the sound of revelry by night. I have wandered lonely as a crowd. I am leading a quiet life outside of Mike's Place every day watching the world walk by in its curious shoes. I once started out to walk around the world but ended up in Brooklyn. That Bridge was too much for me. I have engaged in silence exile and cunning. I flew too near the sun and my wax wings fell off I am looking for my Old Man whom I never knew. I am looking for the Lost Leader with whom I flew. Young men should be explorers. Home is where one starts from. But Mother never told me there'd be scenes like this. Womb-weary I rest I have travelled. I have seen goof city. I have seen the mass mess. I have heard Kid Ory cry. I have heard a trombone preach. I have heard Debussy strained thru a sheet. I have slept in a hundred islands where books were trees. I have heard the birds that sound like bells. I have worn grey flannel trousers and walked upon the beach of hell. I have dwelt in a hundred cities where trees were books. What subways what taxis what cafes! What women with blind breasts limbs lost among skyscrapers! I have seen the statues of heroes at carrefours. Danton weeping at a metro entrance Columbus in Barcelona pointing Westward up the Ramblas toward the American Express Lincoln in his stony chair And a great Stone Face in North Dakota. I know that Columbus did not invent America. I have heard a hundred housebroken Ezra Pounds. They should all be freed. It is long since I was a herdsman. I am leading a quiet life in Mike's Place every day reading the Classified columns. I have read the Reader's Digest from cover to cover and noted the close identification of the United States and the Promised Land where every coin is marked In God We Trust but the dollar bills do not have it being gods unto themselves. I read the Want Ads daily looking for a stone a leaf an unfound door. I hear America singing in the Yellow Pages. One could never tell the soul has its rages. I read the papers every day and hear humanity amiss in the sad plethora of print. I see where Walden Pond has been drained to make an amusement park. I see they're making Melville eat his whale. I see another war is coming but I won't be there to fight it. I have read the writing on the outhouse wall. I helped Kilroy write it. I marched up Fifth Avenue blowing on a bugle in a tight platoon but hurried back to the Casbah looking for my dog. I see a similarity between dogs and me. Dogs are the true observers walking up and down the world thru the Molloy country. I have walked down alleys too narrow for Chryslers. I have seen a hundred horseless milkwagons in a vacant lot in Astoria. Ben Shahn never painted them but they're there in a vacant lot in Astoria. I have heard the junkman's obbligato. I have ridden superhighways and believed the billboard's promises Crossed the Jersey Flats and seen the Cities of the Plain And wallowed in the wilds of Westchester with its roving bands of natives in stationwagons. I have seen them. I am the man. I was there. I suffered somewhat. I am an American. I have a passport. I did not suffer in public. And I'm too young to die. I am a selfmade man. And I have plans for the future. I am in line for a top job. I may be moving on to Detroit. I am only temporarily a tie salesman. I am a good Joe. I am an open book to my boss. I am a complete mystery to my closest friends. I am leading a quiet life in Mike's Place every day contemplating my navel. I am a part of the body's long madness. I have wandered in various nightwoods. I have leaned in drunken doorways. I have written wild stories without punctuation. I am the man. I was there. I suffered somewhat. I have sat in an uneasy chair. I am a tear of the sun. I am a hill where poets run. I invented the alphabet after watching the flight of cranes who made letters with their legs. I am a lake upon a plain I am a word in a tree. I am a hill of poetry. I am a raid on the inarticulate. I have dreamt that all my teeth fell out but my tongue lived to tell the tale. For I am a still of poetry. I am a bank of song. I am a playerpiano in an abandoned casino on a seaside esplanade in a dense fog still paying. I see a similarity between the Laughing Woman and myself. I have heard the sound of summer in the rain. I have seen girls on boardwalks have complicated sensations. I understand their hesitations. I am a gatherer of fruit. I have seen how kisses cause euphoria. I have risked enchantment. I have seen the Virgin in an appletree at Chartres And Saint Joan burn at the Bella Union. I have seen giraffes in junglejims their necks like love wound around the iron circumstances of the world. I have seen the Venus Aphrodite armless in her drafty corridor. I have heard a siren sing at One Fifth Avenue. I have seen the White Goddess dancing in the Rue des Beaux Arts on the Fourteenth of July and the Beautiful Dame Without Mercy picking her nose in Chumley's. She did not speak English. She had yellow hair and a hoarse voice I am leading a quiet life in Mike's Place every day watching the pocket pool players making the minestrone scene wolfing the macaronis and I have read somewhere the Meaning of Existence yet have forgotten just exactly where. But I am the man And I'll be there. And I may cause the lips of those who are asleep to speak. And I may make my notebooks into sheaves of grass. And I may write my own eponymus epitaph instructing the horsemen to pass.
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Autobiografia
A VIDA que levo é muito sossegada Passo os dias no café do Mike admirando os campeões de bilhar do grupo Dante e os viciados de matraquilhos A vida que levo é muito sossegada na zona leste de Broadway Sou americano fui um rapaz americano
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